[LN] Konbini Goto Kara Tasuketa Jimi Tenin ga - Volume 2 - Prologue
Prologue - Programming in Logic
I'm not worth living.
I've killed Kuromine-kun's family, made my own mother and father suffer and die.
I'm not a victim. I am the perpetrator.
Not a day passes without guilt.
Every time I breathe, I choke.
I kept remembering the "moment of the accident" and "my parents who looked like Teru Teru Bozu.
Again and again and again......
It's hard to live.
I suddenly thought of Kuromine-kun.
The sparkling and glorious everyday life that began the day he saved me from a convenience store robbery.
Although it was only a few days, my life with Kuromine-kun gave me a sense of fulfillment in life.
Whenever I feel difficult, I remember Kuromine-kun like a survival instinct.
My first love.....
It makes my heart so hot that it almost melts.
And similar to that feeling, ──── makes me want to go around.
I thought about it over and over again. I'm not worth living.
I understood very well that it was painful just to be alive.
I even hated myself.
I wanted to wrap myself up.
For me, death is liberation. ────
It is the only way to avoid suffering right now.
That's why I can't die.
Don't run away from suffering.
Apologizing to Kuromine-kun is not enough.
This is all my fault.
I shouldn't have expected it to be so difficult.
It's all my fault.
I feel sorry and guilty for Kuromine-kun. ────
I kept blaming myself.
Until this body decomposes....
Until my heart broke into pieces. ────